Flashbacks - Day 4

I am a thinker.  I like to think about things, stew on them, if you will.  However, when my body gets to a certain level of strain/stress (i.e. elevated blood pressure) my thoughts get a bit strange. 

Today is a cardio day.  I alternate weight lifting and cardio (although I do some cardio after lifting right now to burn extra calories) every day, 5-6 days a week.  I was doing the 'Weight Loss' program on the elliptical machine and was on my final 'elevated' portion of my 30 minute workout.

By this point my blood pressure is around 170 or so, I'm sweating, and feel determined to see this thing through.  That's when I start getting flashbacks of all the meals that I ate that I thought to myself while eating them, "I'm going to have to pay for this later."  If my eating habits were spending habits, I'd be in a lot of debt!  Anyways, my favorite foods that I will now have to pass on more than enjoy began flowing through my brain.

Now understand me, I understand that after living a certain way for a while that it is common to go through a certain amount of mourning over the loss of some beloved friends.  However, I cannot describe the feeling of seeing Brooklyn Style Pizza (Pepperoni and Extra Cheese), Burritos, Cheeseburgers, and other greasy goodness, flow through my mind as I am entering the peak of my workout.  It was both sad and nauseating.

Overall, things are going pretty well thus far.  I mean, I haven't thought (seriously) about going to the Blue Bell Factory and offering to join strangers on the tour for the 'free' scoop at the end or anything desperate like that.  However, I realized that if I stay up too late, that I become STARVING and it takes everything in me not to drive over to Andrea's Taco Shop and get a breakfast burrito (or 3).  So, if you're up in the evening and think about me, pray...  

Gym outfit of the day:  An Older Friend was walking on the treadmill in front of me and he had on a khaki ball cap, button down, long sleeved shirt, and brown Wranglers, with white walking shoes.  CLASSIC!  I'm not one really to talk though, I was wearing a black T-Shirt that said, "BEST CAMP EVER" (from Horizon Camps) and green shorts that I wore to be ELF one year for a party (I need to do laundry).

START WEIGHT: 238 lbs

WEIGH IN: 235 lbs

TOTAL LOSS:       3 lbs

P.S. - Thanks to all of you for your support and E-mails.  They are such a help!  Also, if you have any helpful tips that don't include joining a pyramid scheme, let me know!