Monday, August 24, 2009

40 Pounds of Failure

"DO OVER!" Failure again. I was doing so well, but then summer came. Perhaps it is because I am a creature of habit. Or maybe it's just a passive way that I give in to my sense of entitlement, but whatever the issue, I've failed. When I started this adventure I was 238 lbs and then went down to 225 lbs. I am now back up to 236 lbs.

Now, before you give in to the temptation to rush in and make me feel better about myself, I would kindly ask that you don't. This is a real problem for me and not something that needs to be taken lightly. It's a combination of situation, vocation, and sin. Certain situations I can't avoid eating like garbage, BUT I can make wiser choices about portion sizes, etc. Vocation as an itinerant speaker (preacher) forces me into camp cafeterias, airport restaurants and late night fast food runs. Again, it's still an issue of choice, and the scale exposes my propensity towards making poor choices when I am out of my day-to-day rhythm.

So, here I am again starting over. Drinking a lot of water, going to the gym with old guys in their starched jeans, and watching what I eat. I know I will only feel like I am starving to death for a few days and then it will get better. This is frustrating. I have been here before, I know better, yet, I fall. I repent.

Here's to better days...

Original Start Weight: 238 lbs
Loss of weight at the end of May: 225 lbs
Start Over Weight: 236 lbs